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Stopping by Food Lion on a Sunday Morning….

23 Jun

Today I stopped in at Food Lion on my way to Sunday School. Reason? I just feel like where two or more kids are gathered……you need Goldfish! ¬†ūüôā ¬†While I was searching for these snacks that smile back…and I mean searching as I’m a Lowe’s Foods fan…I keep running into a family of four. ¬†Two kids under the age of 8, Mom, Dad. ¬†Dad is pretty upset at the meat selection at Food Lion and apparently wants the Butcher, the Baker and the Candlestick Maker to all hear his dismay. ¬†He is using every cuss word I’ve ever heard and certainly isn’t being shy about it. ¬†The thing is…no one is really around from Food Lion. ¬†He’s really just sort of complaining to his family. ¬†His wife and kids are barely paying attention to him but he still goes on and on about the prices, selection and anything else that he feels entitled to.

I’m seriously embarrassed for this family but they look SO unaffected. ¬†I found it so sad that this was their normal. ¬†What if¬†Dad creating a scene and cussing like a sailor was a usual Sunday morning for this family? ¬†I tried to avoid them as much as possible. ¬†However, I kept running into them. ¬†Goldfish aisle. ¬†Water endcap. ¬†Frozen section. ¬†And then, it happened. ¬†He cussed, right in front of me…as I was in between him and his family for a split second. ¬†He was STILL cussing about meat, mind you…not ME…but he looks straight at me and says, “Oh, pardon my language, ma’am.” ¬†I nodded and moved on but clearly I haven’t forgotten it. ¬†It just affected me so much that this man apologized to me…but certainly not to his kids or his own bride. ¬†(I’m assuming they were married, by the way.) ¬†The fact that he took the time to excuse himself to a perfect stranger, yet found it completely okay to act that way in front of his little children just baffled me. ¬†I wanted to scream at him, “don’t apologize to ME, how about telling your kids you are sorry you can’t contain your anger? how about telling your wife that you are sorry for embarrassing her in public?” ¬†Of course, I did not do those things. ¬†I didn’t say those things. ¬†I wanted to…and I still wish I’d said something…but to be honest I have no idea how this man would have reacted. ¬†Instead, I prayed for them. ¬†All of them. ¬†I get that this act that I saw might seem like no big deal to most people but it stuck with me, stayed with me and I can’t shake it. ¬†I feel like when God puts things like that on your mind, there is a reason. ¬†Maybe they are going through something and need the prayer especially today. ¬†I’d like to think there is a reason…but even if there’s not…I’ll be praying for the Apologetic Sailor for a while and his family too.

Change is good (Period. Exclamation! Question Mark?)

18 Jan

I don’t know if the title of my post is a question, a statement, or a cry. ¬†Sometimes you think you want or need change and it’s awesome. ¬†It’s just what the soul needed. ¬†Sometimes you don’t expect it and there it is – BOOM. ¬†It hurts, it’s awkward…it makes your insides ache. ¬†Sometimes it just is. ¬†It happens and you’re not happy or sad about it. ¬†You just roll with it and move on.

So many people tackle the “new year” with such fervor. ¬†Such hope and joy and expectations galore. ¬†I just wish I could sit down with a large percentage of them and just ask some questions…why now? what have you been waiting on? what is different on January 1st that couldn’t have started June 2nd or September 6th or May 9th? is there some magical reset that takes place with the tossing of a calendar?

I think we all know that’s absurd. As adults we know that we can start fresh anytime. ¬†We can turn away from the past and move on to a new path. ¬†As a Christian, I know that I MUST turn away. ¬†When you ask for forgiveness, you do so with repentance. ¬†To turn away from the old. ¬†That means you STOP doing that thing that you are asking forgiveness for. ¬†Boy, if teenagers REPENTED to their parents wouldn’t life be simple? ¬†If your husband REPENTED, would you not have a happier home? ¬†So, what stops us? ¬†Being human? ¬†Being weak? ¬†Being sinners? ¬†I am so convicted this week about this. ¬†I am so convicted about having a pure home. ¬†I want this for my children. ¬†I don’t wish to shelter them, no…but I do wish to have my heart softened. ¬†To not make excuses. ¬†To want the best for them. ¬†To want what God wants for them. ¬†To know it’s possible. ¬†To pray for it. ¬†To ache for that. ¬†To remember…Philippians 4:13 says, “I can do all things through Christ¬†who strengthens me.” ¬†It doesn’t say I can TRY…it says I CAN.

If you are reading this and aren’t saved, don’t know what it is to be a Christian or don’t know how to ask Jesus into your heart – please do reach out. ¬†I’d love to talk to you and answer any questions you might have. ¬†My email is mrsjmejones@gmail.com. ¬†

Does God have Disney plans for you??

1 Jul

So, I kept a secret from my kids. ¬†They didn’t know we were headed to Disney World after we moved into our new house….and I did quite a bit of planning behind their backs. ¬†I wanted the WOW factor when they found out…I wanted them to LOVE it and to be SO EXCITED. ¬†I have waited and waited for the time to reveal this surprise to them.

Disney

 

It got me thinking. ¬†I wonder how our Heavenly Father must feel about the plans He has for us. ¬†I wonder how it must be to know our future and know how much He can bless us? ¬†It makes me feel pretty pitiful for ever going against God’s will. ¬†To think that I’ve bucked His plans or wondered what He was thinking. ¬†You know if my kids would have said “MOM, I’d rather have gone to Carowinds!!” ¬†I would have been crushed. ¬†I imagine there are many times that God wants the WOW factor for us and we give Him a groan or moan or anything-less-than-excitement.

May we remember that the worst of things that are happening to us might be the very thing that Christ is using to teach us a lesson of life or of LOVE.  His secret will lead to our joy if we just remember to see it that way and treat it as such.

I hope I can hold on to this and remember it tomorrow and the day after…and forever. ¬†It’s so easy to complain but much more of a challenge to look for the blessings….are you up for the challenge? ¬†I am!!!

Forgiveness

7 Jun

A couple of weeks ago, one of our pastors preached on FORGIVENESS. ¬†I walked away with many thoughts about this topic. ¬†I find it interesting that so many people throw around the request to be forgiven as well as the words “I forgive you.”….funny how it becomes easy to SAY. ¬†How good are we at actually DOING it? ¬†Pastor Murr talked about how when we are presented an opportunity to forgive, we should remember how WE WERE FORGIVEN. ¬†And we were. ¬†And are. ¬†Over and over. ¬†Because we sin. ¬†Daily. ¬†Our Lord forgives us. ¬†He already has. ¬†He paid the debt for all of our sins and we are FORGIVEN. ¬†Who are we to not forgive someone for hurting us, for lying to us, for letting us down. ¬†How many times have you done that to Jesus? ¬†Jesus isn’t bitter. ¬†He doesn’t love us less or treat us differently. ¬†He forgives and forgets it. ¬†Try it.

Moving On

20 Jan

I can’t imagine losing my husband…or my daddy. ¬†I have such emotion right now for my friend and her mom. ¬†I can’t imagine the “what do I do now” feeling or the immense feeling of loss. ¬†I know they are absolutely relieved that he’s no longer in pain, but I would imagine that they are also having that empty feeling as well. ¬†I don’t know how you move on…how you go about your daily life and miss that person….how you sit down to dinner at the table you shared with them and they aren’t there. ¬†The whole “time heals all wounds” saying would fall on deaf ears to me…it would almost offend me. ¬†I’d want more time…more moments…just a few more memories. ¬†Knowing that person is in a better place, of course, helps you with these feelings somewhat I’d think…but not having them present in your every day life has to sting so much. ¬†I am praying so hard right now for this family…I love them so much and I know if there is any way they are going to heal, it will be from our Lord. ¬†God bless them…

Date Night

19 Jan

Mike won a gift from the Marriott in downtown Raleigh while playing in a golf tourney last year. That’s what we are up to. We planned out this night to take advantage of a free night here…

Very cool view…ice skating rink on Fayetteville. We are on the 17th floor! We had dinner at 42nd street and it was delish as always.

My heart though, is with my Sanford family and friends. We lost a great man this afternoon in Mike Moody. He was a special man and fought a disease that all too often wins. I feel for his family…for my Daddy, his buddy…I just can’t imagine the feelings they are all experiencing tonight. If you’re reading this, whatever brought you here, would you please pray for them?

I’m off now to enjoy the rest of this night with my hubby. I’m so appreciative of this time together. Being married to my best friend for the last 6.5 years has been one of my largest blessings. Night!!

Save the people, Save the world

17 Jan

So my writing prompt today is:  How would you start saving the world if you woke up tomorrow with superhuman powers?

I don’t need superhuman powers to know what our world needs. ¬†Our world needs Jesus. ¬†Our world needs to know the love of our God, who gave up His only Son…for us. ¬†To save US. ¬†If we all, every one of us, kept that in our minds all day, every day…I wonder how the world would be different. ¬†Maybe the shootings might end? ¬†Would the deceit and lies and petty things and adultery and theft all cease? ¬†If you thought of your sin as a direct mark or hit on Jesus – would it stop you? ¬†Stop looking to be saved by acts or power or money or deeds and look to the One who can do it….Jesus. ¬†Invite Him into your heart. ¬†Pray this:

Father, I know I’m a sinner and that I don’t deserve eternal life. ¬†Please forgive me. ¬†I want to turn away from my past sinful life and turn towards you. ¬†Please help me to not sin again. ¬†I know that you sent your son, Jesus Christ, to die for me and my sins. ¬†I also know that He is alive and hears this prayer. ¬†I invite Jesus to become the Lord of my life, to rule and reign in my heart from today forward. ¬†I accept Your gift of eternal life. ¬†In Jesus’ name, AMEN!

If you prayed that….tell me! ¬†Tell everyone! ¬†Welcome to the family…. ¬†ūüôā ¬†Praise the Lord!!!

Are You Strong Enough?

15 Jan

So…assuming I’m already a superhero…let’s talk about strength versus speed. ¬†Would I rather be my same wimpy self and really fast about it? ¬†Or would I rather be crazy strong and my usual self? ¬†Hmm. ¬†My energy level is finally getting back to normal after mono. ¬†(If you didn’t know, check the archives or the tags because trust me last year was the year of THE MONO.) ¬†I feel like I have a pretty good tempo at work, driving – check, walking – check, and when I’m hanging with the kids – I can keep up. ¬†So, maybe speed is not a desire of mine. ¬†Strength, though? ¬†I wish I had many of them. ¬†Physical, yes. ¬†I need some more of that. ¬†My arms are pretty sad and I feel like if I honestly NEEDED to use my muscles on a daily basis that we’d all be suffering. ¬†My legs get tired fairly easily and actually, so does the rest of me too. ¬†Emotional strength would be good too, since I have always been a sensitive, tender-hearted person. ¬†It’s a blessing and a curse. ¬†It usually keeps me from going off on people or saying things that I don’t think through first….but it sure makes it worse when someone does it to me. ¬†I cry when I’m mad. ¬†I cry when I’m sad. ¬†I cry when….yeah, you get the picture.

 

Sing a Little Song…Or…Not.

13 Jan

Can I share a confession with you?

I dream to sing in a choir. ¬†Like, when I’m at church, I picture myself up there. ¬†I love to sing. ¬†I love to sing praise music.

However – I have amazingly low self-esteem. ¬†I’m shy. ¬†And I’m crazy self-conscious about EVERYTHING. ¬†My voice, my body, my face, my freckles, my everything! ¬†Now, I know that God made me and he doesn’t make any junk…..sure! ¬†However, the feeling I get when I think of putting myself out there like that? ¬†SCARY!!!!

Will you pray with me that God can use this self-conscious person to sing his praises before I do it in Heaven? ¬†I am quite sure I will there…but I’d kinda like to do it BEFORE then!

In the mood, dude

11 Jan

So, sometimes I am just not in the mood to blog. ¬†Sometimes if I’ve just had a bad week or day or whatever, I just don’t feel like writing about butterflies or rainbows (I have never actually blogged about either of those, so don’t waste your time looking!). ¬†Sometimes I prefer to spend time writing an email to someone or having a serious conversation with my sweet husband. ¬†Sometimes I am just busy and I don’t blog on my iPhone. ¬†On the flip side, there are times when I WANT to blog something out. ¬†I want to type and type and type and I can’t get to my computer fast enough. ¬†(Some of those blogs are still in draft/incognito mode because I’m not even sure where to categorize them!! ¬†LOL) ¬†I have many motivating factors in my blogging…but most of all…I want to remember and to use this as snapshots of my life. ¬†I want to look back a year and think about ¬†where I was or where my head was. ¬†I want to have an easy place to do it. ¬†I also love to write about my Lord. ¬†If that were to EVER make someone want to follow Christ, that would make it alllll worth it. ¬†Another motivation? ¬†If I am totally honest: ¬†boredom. ¬†Sometimes it’s late and I just want to do something right before I fall asleep. ¬†Whatever the motivation, when I’m done, I’m happy that I got it out no matter how heavy or light-hearted it could be. ¬†I like to remember!

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