Okay, it’s not that I hate Halloween or candy or costumes. I don’t hate it or feel that it’s a devilish celebration or am not married to a dentist. Wait, I guess dentists probably LIKE candy-related things? Hmm. Anyway, it’s just not for me. Honestly…if not for mono and the fact that all my Christmas stuff is in a storage unit across town – usually – I put up my Christmas tree on this day! 🙂
This pic was taken on Oct 30, 2011.
Our time at the beach was short but it was FUN. I’ll write in detail about it later I’m sure…as I’m exhausted and am going to listen to my body and rest. For now, here is my reminder and your tease…in list form:
- Daddy’s driving
- Our Beach Residence
- Value of FaceTime
- Hamburger Joe’s
- Wonder Works
- HomeGoods and my chevron finds
- Skywheel at MB
- Krispy Kreme
- Teenage Boys
- Post-Mono Vacations
So, something happened today that made me even more grateful for my Mama and Daddy.
The thought of losing them.
As a dear friend is going through the impending loss of her mother, I daydreamed about this reality in my own life. I can’t even imagine my life without a phone call (or ten) a day from my Mama. I can’t imagine shopping and not thinking about being excited to show Mama what I bought. I can’t even fathom going to my childhood home and my Daddy not sitting in his recliner talking about a TV show…OR commercial! My kids love going to see Nanny and Papa. My hubby loves to talk to my Dad about electronics or weather or anything, really. I just love them, and knowing they are there. They aren’t elderly. They are not in poor health. But I also know they are not mine forever. They will be gone one day and though I know they will have the happiest reunions along streets of gold…I will miss them being here among our streets, just a phone call or a short drive away.
So, many bloggers have a “Wordless” something post where they add a picture with no caption or explanation. I thought I’d do something a little different since I am
rarely never wordless and in fact have many, many words to share and do so quite often.
I decided to browse through my iPhoto album on my Mac which includes new and old photos…and stop on the one that evoked the most emotion. What I stopped on was this sweet woman:
It is my great-grandmother, Myrtle. She was my “Ma”. She was everyone’s “Ma”, really. Her picture reminds me of many things…
- ear-bobs and ruffled shirts
- exquisite clothing
- frozen pizza with added toppings like ketchup and bacon
- her art…capturing flowers or birds or fruit, in the most amazing of ways
- Richard Petty
- chicken pox
- panty hose and black shoes
- her poised demeanor
- a formal “front room” where the Christmas tree was placed each year
- low-pile carpet
- her chair in the corner where she’d read or sew or talk
- the gift of gab…she loved to talk (and I loved to listen)
- her art supplies under the stairs
- claw-foot tubs and the walk through between closets
- attics full of treasure
- my first Papa
- the stool beside her bed, the cause of many falls
- Psalm 23 (on the wall beside her bed)
- pies cooling on the porch
- pecan trees and squirrels
Basically, it takes me back to being a child. Of my mom letting me stay with her when I had the chicken pox. She folded out the couch for me and took such good care of me. She waited on me and enjoyed it. So much. And what she probably never knew was, having chicken pox was one of my favorite childhood memories.
I think….I might….go back to work tomorrow!!!! Probably for 4 hours only but I think I am going to bite the bullet and see how it goes. Wednesday might be a good time to try as it doesn’t hold meetings or usually have huge deadlines. I need to do some trip work and just plain catch up. I need to see my peeps and get out and my rest time to active time ratio is finally on the mend. Please pray! I’m calling my Dr as soon as they open to see about getting the “okay”! Ohhhh I am so hopeful!!! Praise the Lord!!! He always provides…
One of the things that bother me the most, of all that seems to be wrong with our world…is the general lack of kindness shown to others. When my son tells me about things that happen at school…when I watch the news…when I read on Twitter – it is pretty obvious that many people in this world are just unkind. Why people want to tear down others is just beyond me. I might not be the most uplifting, inspiring, motivational person in the world but belittling people is certainly not on my resume either. It hurts my heart to think of kids being bullied and adults too. Many online outlets give more access than ever to allow the bullying of both..and it’s just not right. More than being just “wrong” in my brain…it’s not Biblical. If Love is “Kind”…and it is, according to 1 Corinthians 13:1…and we are called to love…then we are called to be kind, among other things. I would think that the easiest would be kindness though…so why do so many find it so hard?
If you are here, you happened here by chance! I haven’t announced my new digs yet…since I’m still working out the design and layout but I didn’t want you to come and think I was not around! Take a look around and let me know what you think! So excited about having a place to share my thoughts and get thoughts and memories out of my head!
Have you ever just KNOWN something was going to happen. So much that you just wanted to – with all your being – make it STOP. And, maybe you could have? But, probably not. Either way, it happened.
I’m feeling that way over this depressed feeling I am having. I am fighting it with all I can. But, it is still happening. I am absolutely feeling it. Being stuck at home, sleeping a ton, fearful of social situations ~ these are things that most happen as RESULT of depression…not the other way around. I think that’s the reason I can feel it coming and have been able to mostly hold off the major troubles of it. I do cry…but sometimes that is due to the pain in my joints. I also cry because I’m humbled. I’m grateful that I haven’t had health issues before now….that it’s not worse….that this will pass soon.
So I decided that my update yesterday could have been called vague….and that is surely not ever my goal. I prefer to be clear, pointed and transparent. So, let me seriously give you the lowdown.
- I am tracking along with this illness. (If you’re just learning of my mono issues, you can see the old news here.)
- I can expect another 2-3 weeks of feeling bad….but hopefully will make the turn soon and be able to join the living again.
- For the next 6-9 weeks I will be especially susceptible to pneumonia, bronchitis, strep, colds and have the increased risk of hepatitis so my liver functions will be tested regularly.
- I have an ear infection so he gave me antibiotics for that, which of course go great with anyone’s tummy right? (Blah!!)
- Since I have a “weakened immune system”, I am to limit exposure to known sick individuals and to go to the doctor if I have the teeny tiny beginning signs of a cold, sore throat or any fever.
- I am normal. Several symptoms made me wonder if I was…and I am. Not sure if I’m happy or sad about that!!!
- The dizziness should get better over the next few weeks. He is hopeful that it will not last the duration of this illness (which is about 12 weeks total).
- I should not be taking anything for sleep. I asked because I am so off on my sleep patterns. He wants me to sleep when I am sleepy and not worry about when that is.
That’s all, folks! I seriously want to thank those of you who ask about me daily, who have called, emailed, texted to check on me, those who’ve sent things, those who have prayed. I appreciate you all so much. This has been more than I ever could have imagined so I truly am most grateful for one thing – PATIENCE. I’m not really good at it….but I’ve learned more than ever who is…my husband has been so loving and patient through this, I can’t even express how much of a difference that makes. My sweet mother has been especially kind and helpful. My kids have been totally understanding and have seemed to enjoy doing little things for me and I have to tell you that their handmade cards are the most treasured. My boss has been amazing and easy on me. My colleagues have been absolutely wonderful and have picked up where I left off in a big way. My employees have been receptive to the changes that they have had to endure and have stepped up to make sure things didn’t fall through the cracks. My friends and family have been sweet to check on me. I have had cupcakes, spaghetti, lemon pound cake and flowers delivered….(ohhh thank you to my sweet cousin Diane Thomas for that spaghetti…it was timely and so so so so good!)…and I am so very humbled by the kindness of my loved ones and of strangers as well. From people who have contacted me privately through my blog or people who have found other ways…I just can’t say enough how much it means to me. This has been a hard thing for me for which I’ve had no control. (Possibly that’s the hardest part.) Thanks to you guys for making it a little easier on me. Love you all!!!
So here is the update.
I am normal.
(For someone in their third week of mono.)
That’s all. Thanks for playing.