To say that I’m exhausted from pain is an understatement. Let me just give you a quick rundown of what’s going on….(and if technical, lady-business words make you uncomfortable – skip this one!)
April 2013 – intense pain and cramping during periods, had an ablation to help with pain
October 2015 – pain starts back up and surgery is scheduled, due to endometriosis
December 2015 – hysterectomy performed (partial, kept ovaries)
June 2016 – pain is back, but only in left side…checked for cyst – negative….GYN thinks due to endometriosis. Suggests removing ovaries will kill estrogen and therefore stop feeding endometriosis.
June 2016 – Ovaries removed. No hormones prescribed so as to remove as much estrogen as possible. Pain continues. While performing surgery, notices there is significant endometriosis on colon.
July 2016 – Pain continues. Visits to primary care physician, GYN and general surgeon to discuss options. Surgeon orders colonoscopy and EGD to check for any blockages or other issues.
August 2016 – Colonoscopy performed. No blockages. Colon is “floppy” but not showing any signs internally that endo has damaged. Surgeon not convinced that endo is source of pain. GYN is sure endo is.
September 2016 – Follow up with general surgeon and he now wonders if pain could be from femoral hernia. He checks and feels “something”. He performs ultrasound and sees “something”. Orders CT Scan.
September 2016 – CT Scan performed and awaiting results. Still waiting. Not patiently.
I am so thankful for friends and family who have reached out, helped out and prayed diligently. I may not have a large family but I have an amazing husband and kids, an awesome set of parents and in-laws and many cousins who have prayed and checked in on me. I’m blessed.
I’m so hoping this pain can be a distant memory soon. Until it is, I am just taking one day at a time….sometimes an hour at a time. The pain is on my left side, is worse when I’m standing and appears for most of the time when I am standing/walking/sitting and if I am laying down it is more than likely THERE but maybe not as “sharp”.
I can’t believe all that has changed in three months. I went from a workaholic to a stay at home Mom. A relatively healthy 37 year old to a 37 year old hermit in chronic pain. Making the decision to leave my stressful, travel-heavy job was a hard one but I am so grateful that my husband and family supported me in it so much. There is absolutely no way I could commit to working at this point. I’m thankful that I have always had a job, since I was 15 (shout out to Jimbo’s Grill and On Cue!!) and I have had amazing opportunities, met wonderful people and learned many things (shout out to pivot tables, vlookups and incentive programs). The season I’m in now is one of waiting and being still and having faith. It’s uncomfortable but I do believe that the Lord is with me and is guiding me through this. He is giving me strength to do things that matter. Homework with MJ, moving my oldest to college, getting ready for doctor appointments, cooking dinner for my sweet husband….the important things. I am just learning every day to be a patient patient. It’s not easy.